Monday, February 2, 2009
How I have felt for the last few weeks...
This explains why I have been in a type of hiding and why I don't have the energy to change my blog or make the announcement in the cute way I had planned, and why the apartment is a mess, and Helen looks like a ragamuffin, and why Jake is being the greatest Mr. Mom, and well, everything.
I was barely holding it together until Jake came home. Then I lost all composure in many ways. At times I just lost it - including my lunch. Everyday has been progressivly worse. I know I am suppose to be thrilled and excited. But honestly folks, those feelings don't come for a very long time for me during a pregnancy. Right now my life cosists of making it to the next hour.
And any comments about what happens 9 months after a soldier comes home on leave would be appreciated if left alone...they all became really old like a year ago when Jake left.
I hate this feeling.